Will someone pull me out of this nightmare that i am having these few weeks! I having it almost every day. Can someone put me out from it or hit my head to make me suffer from memory lost?

I been having alot of problems with work. I make a lot of mistakes. I misinterpere alot of things, misjudge, misread, misunderstood and did alot of things that was not right!

Same for my car driving, things has not been going too well and my test is on 10 dec. I still have probat on the slope part.

For work, i did make a lot of mistake. And if you ask me what was i thinking at that time. I can tell you one thing that is that i have no idea. When my boss pointed it to me, i then release. it like waking up from a dream that i was unconius of. Now the greatest problem is to get out of this nightmare before everyone gets mad at me.

So will someone be there to get be out of the nightmare? Actually there be none, firstly cos no one will be bother to turn at look at me and next its something that i have to learn to help myself to get out of it. And what is the solution to it? thats is to be more sharp and think detail, be more xiao xin whcih i seriously lack it!

I know if i give this reason my ma will be mad at me but since young i be careless, think simply and not careful! She say that i need to learn.

Seriously i want to tell her that, i want to learn to become a person that is creful, detail and sharp but i dunno where to learn from. Each time i try to remain sharp, i overlook at other things.

So could someone hit me on the head so that i can lost my memories! be it personal or work.

As for my driving, my mum is shaking her head. no matter how many things to tell me. i cannot become more confident.

I am so phissered with myself. Sometimes i really want to break free from that shell that i has been living in.